Happy Valentine’s Day!
Please allow me to be a bit rambly and deep today.
The past years that I’ve blogged on Valentine’s, I’ve gone the typical route, and wrote a mushy gushy lovey dovey post about Shane. This year, I want to talk about something different (although Shane is still my sweetie pie smoosh face that I love!)
Let’s talk about Self Love. I’m not talking about “love your body” or “appreciating your curves” or blah blah blah. Not that that stuff’s not important. I’m talking about loving WHO you ARE.
I’ve actually had a tough time with this concept.
Growing up, I was always a follower. I wasn’t afraid of being different or weird – I was just more comfortable letting someone else lead. This lead to having a pretty weak sense of self. I always followed the trends, and wanted to be friends with the cool kids.
Now I know the cool kids are the “kids” I call my best friends and family. Those who have stuck with me through thick and thin. Now I’m one of the cool kids in my world.
Not having a strong sense of self growing up lead me to my rebellion phase in high school and college, which I think, in the end was a good thing, because I found myself on the other end. Because of this, I made it my life goal in my lower twenties to figure out who I was, and I’m happy to say that now not only do I know who I am, but I also love the person I am.
And I don’t mean that in a conceited way. I mean it in a this is who God made me and I’m going to do my best dang job at it! Besides, it takes way too much energy trying to pretend you’re something that you’re not.
If I ever feel myself being jealous, bitter,comparing, coveting, or wanting what someone else has, I give myself a mental slap in the face and ask myself one question:
Am I being 100% true to myself right now?
In those situations, the answer is typically no, notsomuch.
bratty (at times!)
a good judge of character (I like to think, at least)
Obviously not all of those qualities are considered desirable, but they’re me, and that’s more than fine with me
And now I’m going to go eat some of my favorite chocolate.
Did you consider yourself a leader or a follower growing up?
For funsies – what’s your favorite chocolate bar?
I loooove Chocolove and Endangered Species dark chocolate bars, but Lindt comes in a close 3rd!